all i ever wanted was for good things to happen to people. yet my good intentions got the better of me. what have i ever got in return for good intentions? my parents go to the temple and pray and pray with great looks of devotion as they close their eyes and fold their hands. they pour their feelings out silently into a desperate prayer. yet what good did it do? how would one ever verify that good intentions actually lead to results. good intentions are a lazy effort. yet i cannot discount the power of the network around me. after all, whose life isnt a result of a series of seemingly random events that irreversibly changed things? but i fail to see how inaction and mere good feelings or whatever can actually affect the network.

people have gotten tired of my rants. i'm 32 and too old to be a single indian woman. people dont give me attention anymore. this has its pros and cons. one the one hand, it can be quite lonely. on the other, i can think of what i actually want to do with my life.