my aim in physics is to understand what has been done. my job is to make day to day phenomena understandable to people. to develop a way of thinking that is compassionate because it understands. very often we commemorate people, but people are just accidents. my mind is not as interesting as the universe. of course, people are very complicated, and that could be interesting. but physical phenomena are far more tractable. design simple experiments to enunciate beautiful truths. the truths of science can change the perception of a child. when they are right there for you to see. what they do with that knowledge is a different thing. they may become religious because some things are too difficult for the brain to comprehend, and there are always questions and more questions. in a way science is utter madness. like, you shove a word like entropy on to people, then what are you going to do with it? huh? what entropy? heat and thermodynamics. that is a nice problem, just do it. think of scalable experiments that enunciate the concept beyond any doubt.

end game

It has been too long. this has to be done. tonight. it is not impossible. i have had drugs, i know more or less whats what, i can make considerable progress tonight if I sit it out. Will keep this space updated. Here I go!

I am going crazy. My head is full of details. Get them out. Get the details out. Fast.